So.... I wrote a play, and my theater class is actually performing it next week. I know I should be excited. Writing is who I am...but I'm still dissatisfied with myself. I want to be thinner. I miss men-- intelligent men.

I should be focusing on school and work....but all I can think about is my body and boys. fail.

so I need to stop eating all the time and actually get thin. I wanted to work out today, but I felt sick. I'm always kinda happy when that happens though, because it's so easy to feel less guilty about vomiting when you're actually, honestly ill.